Structural Stupidity
When I posted this picture on my fb wall, my big brother gave me his comment,"it sounds like a structural stupidity".
I replied,"you are not the only one who said that".
Then he said,"well there is always another side of the coin... either it is half full or half empty... keep up the LOVE..!"
I mean, come on, how does it possible for me to be effing loyal to an impossible someone for almost 4 years without even blink. Even if I l know that it does sound completely pathetic and stupid. As far as I'm concern, I'm not ugly. I don't have a model's bod, but I think as an ordinary 40 something woman, I should have no problem to find myself a bf.
Almost no one believe me when I told them that there have never been anyone else since we met. Sometimes I can't believe it either. But he won my heart and soul, yeah, that's the truth. It feels like the universe has it's own way to keep us interlocked, interconnected through the mythical soul hub that no one can imagine. As if universe has her own parenthesis to fill in any gap between us. But strangely, I found myself in this lala land. I found my laughter, I found my tears. I found bravery, I found my happiness. I found love and I found life.
How long do I want to wait for him? I don't know.
Am I sure that I want to spend the rest of my life waiting for him? Maybe.
Perhaps, he did something good in his life that makes him deserve to be loved and adored by me. Perhaps, I have made a promise to the universe and this is the only way to keep that promise. Perhaps, we were meant to each other but apparently the universe has no sense of time, so she kinda screw it up...a little...or a lot.
Anyway, as my brother said, there is always another side of the coin. I just let the universe to flip my coin.Hey universe, since you have been playing with my life so many times, will you take him to meet us in Bali this week end?
I replied,"you are not the only one who said that".
Then he said,"well there is always another side of the coin... either it is half full or half empty... keep up the LOVE..!"
I mean, come on, how does it possible for me to be effing loyal to an impossible someone for almost 4 years without even blink. Even if I l know that it does sound completely pathetic and stupid. As far as I'm concern, I'm not ugly. I don't have a model's bod, but I think as an ordinary 40 something woman, I should have no problem to find myself a bf.
Almost no one believe me when I told them that there have never been anyone else since we met. Sometimes I can't believe it either. But he won my heart and soul, yeah, that's the truth. It feels like the universe has it's own way to keep us interlocked, interconnected through the mythical soul hub that no one can imagine. As if universe has her own parenthesis to fill in any gap between us. But strangely, I found myself in this lala land. I found my laughter, I found my tears. I found bravery, I found my happiness. I found love and I found life.
How long do I want to wait for him? I don't know.
Am I sure that I want to spend the rest of my life waiting for him? Maybe.
Perhaps, he did something good in his life that makes him deserve to be loved and adored by me. Perhaps, I have made a promise to the universe and this is the only way to keep that promise. Perhaps, we were meant to each other but apparently the universe has no sense of time, so she kinda screw it up...a little...or a lot.
Anyway, as my brother said, there is always another side of the coin. I just let the universe to flip my coin.Hey universe, since you have been playing with my life so many times, will you take him to meet us in Bali this week end?
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